Space Game Junkie

Getting Back On One of These…

After my staycation back in January, I was feeling pretty damned good about things around here. Then, I got sick…then, work really picked up…then, I had medical crap to deal with (high blood pressure, such a joy). I just realized, for the last couple of months, I’ve felt kinda burnt out…not just in general, but on spacey games. I’ve just felt “meh” toward playing just about anything. I realized this when I looked back at the content I’ve done for the site lately and realized all I’d really been playing is TIE Fighter. Now, TIE Fighter is freaking awesome, don’t get me wrong, but I have a whole queue of stuff I need to get to, and I don’t wanna be “that guy” that devs give their games to and never hear from again.

Once I realized I was burnt out sometime last week, I started dealing with it so as to change the feelings that have kept me feeling down and burnt out would change, and finally, FINALLY, I’m starting to feel positive again, and now feel ready to get back on the horse. I know I go through these phases where I do a bunch of content and then get distracted with something, whether it’s Skyrim or Driver: San Francisco or just life in general, then I always apologize for it, come back for a while, and fall back into it again like I did for the last two months. One would think I could power through it, but I don’t think I’m there yet. Even when I was a professional full-time gaming journalist, I never felt the love and passion for what I’m doing as much as I do for this site (oh, if I could only do this full time), but since I ask more of myself for this blog, I think it takes more out of me as well.

That being said, I always want to be transparent with you guys and let you know what’s going on, which is why I’m writing this post. I’m also writing it to be accountable, and to thank you all for visiting and continuing to visit even during slow times like these. I’m always striving to balance out this blog with the rest of my life, and I think this is just part of the process. It’s kind of like group therapy, methinks. :) Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings, and stay tuned for a resumption of content soon! Yay! Thanks guys!! :)

Brian-Time-Sleep-Gaming = Crazy Brian :/

Heeeeeyyy guys. How are you? Me? Oh, you know, things are mostly good, but kinda crazy, which is why I’m writing this. You may have noticed that besides news posts and podcasts, content’s been a little light. I hope you’re wondering why, because I’m gonna tell ya. ;) First is the lack of time. In the past two-ish weeks, I’ve been out of town for a whole weekend, working extra hours to take some extra time off (which was used to basically record three podcast episodes last week) and going to the doctor four times in the last two weeks, followed by various pharmacy visits. This has left very little time for, well, anything except scant downtime at home before going to sleep. Work has also been busier than usual, and will continue to be so for at least a week or two longer.

This has led to the second problem, a lack of energy. Due to the insanity of my schedule lately PLUS the daylight savings time change, which totally messed up my internal clock, I’ve been getting much less sleep than I’m used to. This has left me with barely enough energy for the one-to-two hour daily commute and work day, let alone coming home to work on the blog effectively, to the level of competence that you folks deserve. I feel bad, but at the same time, I’d rather approach this with much more energy, rather than sleepily half-assing it.

This all has led to the final problem…I’ve barely played any games in the last two weeks. Besides that sliver of TIE Fighter below, various PBEM turns in Civilization V and some little roguelikes on my Andoid phone, I’ve not really played anything else. To a hard-core gaming addict such as myself, these are like crumbs rather than full meals, and I can actually feel myself going through withdrawal, which is making me cranky and not wanting to do things. Ugh.

So there ya have it. I’m busy as hell, tired, cranky and shaky due to withdrawal, and it’s making for a fun time. ;) I just wanted to update y’all as to why I’ve been pretty quiet of late. I’ll try to get back in the saddle soon, hopefully this weekend, but until then, I thank y’all for your patience and your patronage. Love you guys! :) Thanks for reading, and have an awesome weekend.