Friday Afternoon Soapbox Ramblings of a Madman Type Thing (Or Something)

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  1. zaphod6502 says:

    “What I am ultimately terrified of is being seen as lame, as a fraud, as a poser…as a loser.”

    Oh Brian. I doubt anyone would see you in that light. You and this website have become THE go to place on the ‘net for space game news and other similar genre’s. I absolutely love it. If it wasn’t for this awesome blog I would not have known about many of the great indie space games I have now purchased and am playing.

    Lastly your blog/website is far more well known than you realise. I was speaking to someone at work a couple of months ago about space sims (Star Citizen specifically) and they mentioned they were reading a great website to follow news and I asked which one?

    This one!

    Yes it surprised the hell out of me in a good way of course. :)

  2. Moonrogue says:

    You’re great, and everyone on this site thinks you’re great, and if you continued to do what I’ve seen you do here over the last two years, I would be a subscriber 4lyfe.

    Also this kicks Adam Solo’s ass.

    (Also: boobz)

  3. You have got a few of my ideas and ramblings on facebook already and I could threaten you with much more… :) But for now I just wanted to say, it’s not easy putting yourself out there like this. I really respect that. I was going through a rough patch in my life as well. I’m blogging for years now and I was thinking about putting it all out there, but I didn’t. Probably because I’m afraid to, in the end we all are to various degrees. And that’s what keeps me going, knowing that every one of these other people out there, no matter how tough on the outside, is exactly as afraid as I am. And that not giving a fuck what other people think about what you are doing seems to correlate with success in general.

    I’m all in for a ‘Space Game Heaven’ and wouldn’t mind putting a little work into it myself, if I can help in any way, not sure what you might need though. Maybe we will just see as things develop, I’m sure you will let us know when your direction gets more concrete. Visualizing your project somehow on a mindmap or something can go a long way and helps me a lot. Nailing down all the features and keystones of ‘the endproduct’ from a consumers view and go crazy from there. The other way around a project like that tends to get a little fuzzy pretty soon, it’s easy to loose sight of what it was you trying to acomplish in the grand scheme of things.

    Turning a beloved hobby into a fulltime thing can be unbelievable rewarding, but it is not for the faint of heart. Like you said, you are making yourself vulnerable, because critic of your work is now also critic on what you love, so in some sense on you as a person. One has to be aware of that, but this shouldn’t discourage anyone. In my experience it will make you grow as a human being and I think in the end true success in anything is only realy possible in a field you love. Most people don’t want to grow though, because it’s painful from time to time. I hold people who do so anyway in highest possible regard. Maybe that’s why I’m writing almost a book here again, sorry fot that, but I want to see you succeed man!

  4. Simon says:

    Have some confidence, I really like your blog and I really like you as a personality. I’m looking for news on this blog almost every single day, that’s saying something. Thank you for you hard work on this, it is much appreciated.

  5. farcodev says:

    You shouldn’t care too much of what people think about what you do. That doesn’t mean to not care about your community but more about what they think of you. You cannot please anyone btw.
    Continue to talk about your passion without locking yourself.
    Many of my blog posts sounds silly sometimes but I don’t care much because the most important to me is to inform my little community, not doing a corporate style perfect post.
    In the end, sharing our passions is the only thing that count.

    • Brian Rubin says:

      Welcome to the comments, and you are absolutely right. This is totally something I’ll be dealing with.

      • All people on youtube and blogs have to deal with that I guess. This one damn comment that is nagging us. It helps me to remind myself that these pieces sometimes enjoyed by hundrets or thousands of people, compared to that I should not get obsessed with one voice. The Troll will always be there, no matter what you do, see it as a compliment. Even if it is ill conceived, it is a testament to your influence, nothing less. Sometimes that’s easier said than done though ;)

        TotalBiscuite and Friends sometimes talk about their skype support group for youtubers, where they come toghether to share the stupidity out there :) And I don’t think they are jonking around, they really do that. And their tipp as well is to remind yourself about how much more positiv followers are out there, most of them won’t say anything, but they are their, in your views.

  6. Shango says:

    I´m a Spanish fan of this great site wich I read on a daily basis. It´s simply THE place when you want to learn about spacey games and thanks to you I have discovered many great titles, last one being FTL wich I am enjoying a lot¡¡, this was a game that never seemed interesting enough to me until I read you, then I thought “Hey man if Brian is talking so good about it can´t be bad at all¡¡¡”. Please Brian keep this place going on. For me and many others this is our home in the stars. The safe harbour we can always return to dock our starships and share the love for all the sapcey stuff. Maybe you don´t really now how much this place represents to so many people around this ball of dust called Earth. I would like to help you more but as you can see English is not my first language and even if I can understand it very well I find difficul to speak or write properly.

  7. Chris says:

    Hi there, I only found your blog the other day (pre THIS post) and it hit a note with me – similar age (i guess), similar experience, gaming anyway…
    As for blogging – you are doing great. I totally understand that fear of being YOU and nobody liking it – well TOUGH -(on us not YOU)- if we like it great – if not well we don’t HAVE to log here do we. Feel free to put your heart out there, wear it with pride no matter what ANYONE says. I think what I’ve seen so far is GREAT and I know, providing you do more ‘stuff’ that I will keep coming back.
    A for what/how to promote yourself, hard one that – Ive just started listening to Radio Lave podcast and you could try those guys to get a mention ,oh and middle-aged gamer podcast too. One thing i am seeing more and more is ‘guest segments’ on podcasts, you might want to look into that where you offer to do a monthly segment? just an idea.
    Loved your post. Keep your chin up.

  8. Brian I am also a silent follower of your site and it is a great source of info & news on space games and the more you share of your views I think help your readers zero in on how your tastes and interests match theirs.
    Keep up the good work and I am looking forward to reading more.

  9. Duncan Day says:

    Brian, you do great work.

    I agree with posts above: this is my go-to place for information about my favourite gaming genre. Your knowledge is very thorough and your opinions, thoughts, criticisms, and yes even your self deprecating ramblings are all respectable. You’ve steered me toward some great games I wouldn’t have tried, helped me get past some criticisms of games I didn’t give a fair shake to, you’ve re-acquainted me to some old favourites that had gotten dusty on the shelf, and you’ve saved me money (not only alerting us to sales, but also warning us off a few dogs).

    I’m a clinical psychologist in private practice who has also been a writer for a game developer in the computer gaming industry, and an avid gamer since computer games used uppercase characters to represent space ships on a grid. Putting oneself out there like you do is indeed scary as hell, but you need to just keep doing it. It might not get any less scary, but it will get easier and easier as you and your fears become better acquainted, and you slowly learn that the world doesn’t end every time you put it out there again. Not only can I say with professional confidence that you can get past this crisis in confidence, you need to just put an end to the angst and get on with it, ‘cuz you know your shit, and I will continue to listen to it regularly.

    • Brian Rubin says:

      “….but it will get easier and easier as you and your fears become better acquainted…” – This is truly amazing, and honestly, I never saw it that way before, but opens up WHOLE NEW PATHS in my brain to come at this problem, and I love it. Better acquainted with my fears…that’s just perfect. THANK YOU.

  10. Admiral_Webbco says:

    SGJ has been bookmarked as as a favourite on my browser for years, love the site. You have many more silent followers than you probably think, Brian!

  11. “Sadly no, that would be too easy. What I am ultimately terrified of is being seen as lame, as a fraud, as a poser…as a loser.”

    Given that most people are here because we haven’t outgrown our wish to be Luke Skywalker/Darth Vader, I don’t think that’s anything to dwell on.

    • Brian Rubin says:

      Oh I completely agree, but it is what it is and I have to deal with it, so dealt with it shall be. :)

      • Duncan Day says:

        Hey hey HEY!. That’s not fair. I have totally grown out of my “Luke Skywalker” phase, and I never wanted to be Darth Vader (though that whole pinching off people’s breathing sure could’ve come in handy several times in my life…). Now Cal Johnston or Jefferson Clay…..that’s entirely another matter ;)

  12. Unusual Pickle (@UnusualPickle) says:

    Albert Yankovic, visionary philosopher: “Dare to be stupid.”

    Embrace your own inner idiot. Let it light your way. It’s the only way I survive day to day.

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